im bored and my life is sooo confusing

ok sooo u know about my now bf if u read my other blogs sooo im scared and if u really knew me u would be like wut?????????? ur never scared but im only scared about comittment cuz my past hasnt helped much with knowing good things iv never been able to see a happy well put together family cuz ive gone through crappy foster homes sooo some one tell me how is good comittment or w/e