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ok now i said yes to my ex cuz we talked it over and welll now he tells me he is leave for 6 months next year to go through boot camp and he is ganna get a huge check for it and he is ganna get a place and if we are still 2gether he wants me to join him i said it depends on a lot of things and then he is now saying if we are 2gether for a year and a half that he wants us to get ingaged and yet again i said it depends on if we well it just depends on a lot lol huhhhhhhh idk but my future is sneaken up on me i swear im ganna tweak when my junior year is up cuz high school is ending and i havnt made the best of it yet im scared of my future but im also not scared i know what i wanna do i know what collage im starten at and what collage im ganna finish at i just am scared of everything else love,marrage,kids,career,grandkids ohhhhhhhhhhhhh god im freakeddddddddddddddd lol im a loser aint i?