Am i stupid or what?

ok my angel said he was sweet and i like him and he will only be gone 6 months next year and u might not be with him then and i said yes to him AM I THAT DUMB? now my devil witch is usually the bigger girl is now standing up and telling me wut wus in the back uf my mined "it will be the same thing when school starts only worse 'i have weastling and school work and my job and national gaurd to worry about maybe when i get back or maybe over the summer' he wont change why did u say yes?" thats wut it yelled at me i have no life any more i swear im pagan and im as powerful as a mouse with 10 cats serounding me im pathetic and goddes i wish he (MIKE KING) finds this website and sees wut im saying and we end it actually i beleave we are now over ok i think im good now (www.myspace.com/sabrinarosekelley) check me out but i have no picks yet