NEW TIMES
my life consists of twists and turns and i'm prepared to keep going
love
I think i'm in love. i dont believe i was in love before because i was embarassed all the time. with this guy i feel like i'm in live. we have a ton of fun together we have almost everything in common we have the same interests. he is sweet smart and kind. he is new at the relationship game. he is 27 and has never had a gf or a kiss untill me. that makes me feel special. we want to wait till marriage for sex b ecause in my past sex ruins things and for him its a religion thing. we respect eachother and love everything about eachother. even the flaws.I'M IN LOVE WITH ANDREW STEVENS!!!!
random things in my life right now
were not getting married if we make it to the party date it will be a commitment party. marriage doesn't sound right to me i'm only 20 years old. its a peice of paper in my eyes nothing changes except being able to say i'm a wife. ugh everyone around me is getting pregnant such as mt sister and 8 coworkers and like 5 friends lol wtf it makes me a tad bit ill i am def staying away from the drinking hole. ha no way do i need one f those in my life right now. i have been ill latley as well, multiple migrains woozyness and nausea. i am also switching from third shift to second, less hours less pay, more sleep, less stress, more drama all well i'll deal its called over time ha
impending doom/advise needed
Sooo i believe i could be a bad person because of my thoughts....basically latley i have been thinking about a co-worker of mine, A LOT, like dreamin about him and day dreaming and what not now i know that is normal except I have a fiance! yup thats right i love him to death and back and he just recently baught me a new ring. so i'm terrabled but its not my fault i geuss cuz you can't control your dreams right? well i have no clue what has brouhtthi on at all. oh and not on the same subject i am conflicted, i have been in and out of wanting a child, I am 20 and my fiance is 23 we have been together 3 years and lived together over a year now. we live in a little 3 bedroom apartment in a not so good area, but is not terrable concidering there are children every where. but were not geting married till october 29th 2011 and my father wont pay for the wedding if i get pregnant, i'm on a stong birth control that last 3 years and its up in may. i do plan on re-newing it of cource but i dont know when i should get it out to try for a baby. a little advise needed.
pyelonephritis
I'ts allways great to wake up feeling like i want to sleep till its over. Not reall but about two weks ago i woke up with a major case of cotton mouth, which i thought had somthing to do with the fact that i drank a bottle of liquar to myself the night before at my halloween party. and i'm sure i was correct so i dedicated a day to drinking an entire gallon of milk to myself, as i did the week before as well, (I LOVE MILK!!) i was fine till about two days later when i started getting these symptoms...... The two primary symptoms of pyelonephritis (kidney infection) are pain in one flank, the area just beneath the lower ribs in the back, and fever. The pain can travel around the side toward the lower abdomen. There also can be shaking chills and nausea and vomiting. The urine may be cloudy, tinged with blood or unusually strong or foul-smelling. You may need to urinate more often than normal and urinating may be painful or uncomfortable and makes you feel you need to go right after you just went. i thought i was dying to be honest, i called my mother crying and she told me to drink cranberry juice and tons of water so i did. I have to say it got better the peeing stuff stopped but i put off the dr.apointment. (i was sick every week through elementary and middle school due to meds) well lets just say i got worse! 103.7 fever, exruciating pain, vomiting, major fatigue, i had to leave work ealy 3 days in a row and spend a vomiting trip to a dr. an hour away , then take off over time (i'm worried about what my paycheck is going to look like). I'm on an antibiotic, (nitrofurantoin mono-mcr 100 mg) taking ibiprophin or aleve every two hours and trying to dull the symptoms. I cant wait to be back on tp of things, i allmost had a hospital visit! so next time i have a high fever its a dr. apointment for me! lets hope my problems with wanting to puke at smells that used to make me happy goes away!
getting better
getting better
Whats new?
Well my bf is now my fiance acording to us and our friends but our families are another story, My dad doesn't wanna give me up or havta pay for phil to put me down. its hard right now also because i'm working full time and going to school and trying to make our relationship better so its tough but were looking for our first apartment sooo i'm excited!!! but its hard right now but i'm also hoping it all works out!
the beginning to a long story
It all started when I was born, I wasn't exactly lucky when it came to getting a family. I mean I geuss my mom was good but I dont know, because she died when I was only six weeks old. My dad isn't really the kind of guy you'd say was good or even ok, he basically acted like a piret, raped pillaged and stole. I've been in the system sence a wee little thing but i'm ok with that, I believe I wouldn't be where I am today had I not gone through everything I did. My birth name is Sabrina Rosina Yurtch, I've lived with several rrelatives such as my aunt Colleen and my Aunt Karen and Uncle Bill. My life took a turn when my dad locked sky, me and his girlfriend out of the house and a neighborhood boy had to unlock the door by climbing on the roof. I dont remember exactly how it went but the most vivid thing is sky and I going in seperate cop cars to unknown places. We ended up in the same homes at first but then we got seperated, I was alone. Sky is my older sister, I have three syblings and two half syblings.
life is getting clearer
I've decided to get my associates in human services and staying in the PCA (personnal care aid) busines, and as i keep that as a part time job i will attempet to turn it inot full time as well as having my own day care. My boyfriend and I got engaged labor day weekend and are planning our wedding for August 21st 2011, why that day? Its our anniversary of dating why not be our wedding anniversery as well? He is asking my father for his blessing this christmas as well as possibly going to virginia with my family for thanksgiving. LET THE FUN BEGIN
sitting in the dorm
im sitting here with nothing to do i showered i napped i ate now im bored what to do what to do? if i go to the mall ill spen money if i go to the movies i waist money if i go n e where im spending money i dont want to spend even though need a bubbler? lol
leaving and getting it right
i leave for college in less than 2 weeks and im both stoked and scared, also 2morrow is my road test... i hope i pass it would be good 2 be able to drive all over instead of walk and depending on busses and parents, life is very exciting at the moment my bf is getting into new things he is going to try for the army, im happy about that because our future will be set if that happens. he plans on asking me to marry him before he gets in, if he gets in. just anouther hope in my life its not new.
college
i start nxt month, im scared but excited, i cant wait 2 meet my roomy i cant wait 2 start my classes and most of all i cant wait 2 get into my own world.
my own lif success
I got into Jamestown Community College and I'm dorming there this yr. but next yr. im planning on getting my own place out there and maybe going to a 4 yr out there and getting my life straight in a new place. I just hope it all falls through, nmy Bf of 3 yrs. is coming to stay with me for the nest 2 weeks and i hope we conect more he has big plans for our future but i just hope the important things fall through.
weight loss succes
ok so when i moved here to angola i was around 125 pounds, then i gained a few because i actually ate here. i got to about 225 pounds not that any one would have noticed, now im back down a bit. im still working on it but i've lost 43 pounds so far which puts me at 182 but im still going. and you want to be like "what are you doing to lose the weight?" lol the funny thin i started eating breakfast which started me losing it then i started to make my proportions smaller and i make an effort to eat all three meals, i also ride my bike my bike to school once in a while and i walk with my sister and do burst exersizes i got out of Seventeen magazine. interesting huh?
sickness epidemic
Ok so 2 weekends ago my niece n nephew went to the zoo with a friend and her kid, her kid was sick with i dont know what and with being at the zoo with a million other kids, well by monday night both of them were sick with Rotavirus. If you dont know what it is basicaly every one gets it at least once as a kid eather from someone else or by fecal to oral.....gross right? well it could be playing in toilet water or simply scratching but minus the washing of hands. It was very funny finding out what it was or how you get it, me and my sister star looked it up and it said very smart wordy oral to fecal or somthing close to that or ass to mouth lol it was so blunt my sister clicked ass to mouth to see what it said, it said basically if u put your mouth on an ass or if u had anol performed on you then desided to suck there dick. well yeah so i watched my niece after i got out of school that tuesday then went to the hospital with her on wednsday and stayed till my mother got there. my nephew was only really sick till wednsday but still had some things like pooping in the middle of the night about twice a night. my mother stayed in the hospital at night with my sister and niece until she got out, my niece had to stay from wednsday till friday because the doctor decided not to show till friday and also she was super dehydrated. poor girl. my mother was contagous and sick over the weekend and my sister was fine me except for pains in her stomach me n my other sister was sickish we barfed once and diahria for like 10 minutes lol. sucks old and very young get really sick and in the middle is fine. well yeah that was a blast, i never felt the kind of pain i did when i dry heaved a cookie up at 8 in the morning. awsome huh? be carfull because rotavirus is very contagous. deadly for tots 60,000 tots die a yr from dehydration from it.
new ideas and new choices.
I'm painting my room Rose pink because it gives better vibes than plain white, and i guess that suggests that I'm staying home for a while but it only means i"m unsure of the future and I'm willing to be ready to stay. my room is still kinda packed up though, just in case the future turns and cuts straight into "your not staying" I'm ready for that too. I lied i'm not ready for jAvK SHIT BUT WHO REALLY IS?
decisions made and choices brought
my prom dress was bought by me myself for $188 and so was my hair peaces and all that. i was declined from Hilbert which is fine i didn't really want to go there, but I'm worried I've done so crappy in high school I'm finally doing good. I'm on merit roll for the first time since 5th grade. i want to go for criminal justice but its hard to find a job around her and i kind of want to have the air force be my job, you know? as MP military police. half think its good for me the other half thinks i wont make it. idk myself though i've been losing wait and excersizing and trying but its difficult. i g2g bell rang.
hanging
well phil is over for the weekend and i just got a decline letter from Hilbert. good for them i didnt want to go there it was just a choice i need to get started on my airfoce stuff. well phil is a horn dog but were babysitting not that i would n e ways still not ready. im bored as hell though gatta wait for her to get home so we go dress shopping at clothes horse. im so tired and he is sooo damn touchy its irrimatating.
Airforce it is!!!
So i have chosen the air force and I'm starting my long journey and will be making this a FULL journey. congrats to me and i start away.
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